fuck youuu!!!

its gonna be how many years more before i can be back with her???yeah...its hard to face this i know...8 years of relationships and it end up like this...i admit im an asshole...but im gonna prove that ive change...and even if it takes me a thousand years, i will keep on loving her..i'll wait for her...

im feeling sorry for what i had done..ive been an asshole, been a slave to this emotions of mine...i've been wrong...i wish i could get back to the life i used to live before..but things are too late n now im wondering, do i have the chance to live like before again?she's asking me for a space..what is space in a relationships..?for me, space is needed when somebody is tired of you and need this space for a breakup confession..yeah...some people would say, if you love somebody, just let her go...but it has been an 8 years relationships, and it is not an easy thing to just let go people that u love like that...i don't know why is it happening rite now...i just don't understand...im just too confuse...n i dun know what should i do...my apology doesn't seem anything to her..im willing to change for a better person...but she wouldn't pick up my phone calls...i've given her times, but how long must i wait?why is this happening...? i never asked her for any space when shit happens...why is she asking me for it? why?

finally ive finished my exams for this shitty semester...yeay! and i've started working for the sake of getting an extra dough for the holiday...but who cares...hahaha...

school had started...and it had only been 2 weeks but theres so many assignments...damn...with all those phony lecturers and all...i felt depressed...only god knows...how can you learn a subject which happen to use creativity,when the one who thought it is one of the phoniest bastard of all time...came into the class and made us feel stupid about ourselves...is that how a lecturer should act?i dun know what should i feel...i just cant stand with all this shit...its true...damn im so depressed...